I did it! I'm not sure how I feel about it yet, but its a done deal. I told my boss today that I am going to leave JUB. He just said, 'yeah.. ok' and that 'life changes, and you need to change with it'. Its like he expected me to do it. He knows it hasn't been easy since Nathan was born, so that helped. At least he wasn't shocked or anything. I told him I'd stay for a couple weeks and help close things out, and train someone on ROW, so I'm looking at August 15th as my last day. Then me and the kids will have a week and Eli will start school the following week (the 25th). I'm still in the thick of my projects right now at work to really see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I know that once I start distancing myself and closing things out, it'll get harder. Hopefully by then the excitement will set in that I get to be home with my kids. Too bad I'm scared to death of that. ;)
I keep looking around the house and thinking of all the things that I'm going to be able to do. Feeding my kids for one thing... Poor Nathan gets neglected more than he should just because we have been so hectic lately.
2 weeks!!! That is going to happen so fast....
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Thursday, July 31, 2008
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Working Moms gotta go
Ugh. I hate days like today. I get to work this morning and my boss catches me in the foyer and says 'I just tried to call you... I need you to go to a meeting in Rgn 1 in 45 min'. (Rgn 1 is 50 minutes away) so I don't even go to my computer, I just turn back around and walk out the door. Go to the meeting, and realize I have a heck of a lot of work to get done today. It gets done however, and goes back to UDOT for review. They were supposed to take 1 hr and review it. The clock ticks, and time goes by... 1 hour... 1 1/2 hours... 2 hours... NOTHING! I called them twice asking about it and each time I get - "its coming". Well guess what - I have a life. I was supposed to have picked up my kids 45 minutes ago and here I wait for MORE changes because you all are too nitpicky to allow anything through! Sorry... I'm starting to vent a little more than I would like. Anyway, so I give up and go pick up my kids. Mind you I am now 1 hour late in getting them. Go back to work, and my final changes have finally come... make the changes and get home at 5pm!!! My poor kids. Luckily Eli had been asking all week to go to McDonalds for a Kung Fu Panda toy, so it was a good reward for him being patient with his momma.
You know the worst part of it all was? Nathan had a doctors appt at 3pm. I picked him up from daycare at 3:30pm... you do the math. I realized it while I was heading back to the office and made another appt for Monday. Obviously it all turned out alright, but I just got so caught up with everything I had to do... It doesn't happen a lot, but every once in a while work comes before my kids and I don't like days like that.
::sigh:: at least the day is over and I can enjoy my 4th.
Happy 4th of July Everyone!!!
You know the worst part of it all was? Nathan had a doctors appt at 3pm. I picked him up from daycare at 3:30pm... you do the math. I realized it while I was heading back to the office and made another appt for Monday. Obviously it all turned out alright, but I just got so caught up with everything I had to do... It doesn't happen a lot, but every once in a while work comes before my kids and I don't like days like that.
::sigh:: at least the day is over and I can enjoy my 4th.
Happy 4th of July Everyone!!!
Friday, June 6, 2008
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Work update
Well, I've been talking a lot about staying at home vs. working and how hard it has been to come back to work. Today we had our year end reviews and I am feeling much better. I feel like I'm headed somewhere and that I do have a place in my office. They want me to become the resident 'expert' in design and be the go-to person for questions on the programs /special design situations... I'm really excited. Obviously I have a long way to go before I get there, but at least I have direction now. It doesn't make waking my kids up every day any easier, but the time I spend here feels like it is worth it. So for now, I am still going to work and I feel good about that decision.
That was my biggest thing. I wanted to know in no uncertain terms that I was making the right decision. Whether its being home all the time or working. I didn't want to question it everyday. For now, this is where I want to be. I want and need to spend time with my children, but I think this 5 hours a day is the perfect balance. I can do both. I think also that if I were to quit, I would lose (what little) expertise I have and it would be harder to get into my niche later on when I wanted to come back. Not to mention the economy seems to be taking a serious dive and it might be nice to have me working in case (heaven forbid) Chris were to lose his job. Not that I think that will happen... but you know what I mean. Our current leader is still going to be there for another year... and things could (and might) get a lot worse. Sorry, I'll save my politics for another place.
That was my biggest thing. I wanted to know in no uncertain terms that I was making the right decision. Whether its being home all the time or working. I didn't want to question it everyday. For now, this is where I want to be. I want and need to spend time with my children, but I think this 5 hours a day is the perfect balance. I can do both. I think also that if I were to quit, I would lose (what little) expertise I have and it would be harder to get into my niche later on when I wanted to come back. Not to mention the economy seems to be taking a serious dive and it might be nice to have me working in case (heaven forbid) Chris were to lose his job. Not that I think that will happen... but you know what I mean. Our current leader is still going to be there for another year... and things could (and might) get a lot worse. Sorry, I'll save my politics for another place.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Thanks J-U-B
WOOHOO!!!! Thank you JUB! One more reason that working is kind of nice. I got a bonus! I think I might get myself a new stove (hopefully gas) and/or a freezer for the garage! It very much made my day. Plus we should still be getting our "Christmas present" at the Christmas party which isn't much - maybe $200, but that'll add in to 'get Mary some new appliances' fund. :) Wow... just realizing how sad that is. I get this extra money and the best thing that I can think of to spend it on is appliances. I'm pathetic.
So everyone is wussing out on me as far as taking their babies to the company Christmas party. Usually its an adults only party, but this year there were 4 babies born, 3 of which were within the last 3 months. One definitely isn't bringing his, one will depend on how tomorrow goes and if he eats just before they leave, but the third has to bring his little one (thank you Justin). I think my boss might be kind of sad. He is kind of expecting to see these babies with all the baby talk that has been around the office. oh well. I guess 2 for sure. To be honest, I'm just not comfortable leaving my screaming 2 month old with a 14 yr old babysitter. Maybe if Grandma lived nearby it might be different.
So everyone is wussing out on me as far as taking their babies to the company Christmas party. Usually its an adults only party, but this year there were 4 babies born, 3 of which were within the last 3 months. One definitely isn't bringing his, one will depend on how tomorrow goes and if he eats just before they leave, but the third has to bring his little one (thank you Justin). I think my boss might be kind of sad. He is kind of expecting to see these babies with all the baby talk that has been around the office. oh well. I guess 2 for sure. To be honest, I'm just not comfortable leaving my screaming 2 month old with a 14 yr old babysitter. Maybe if Grandma lived nearby it might be different.
Monday, December 10, 2007
Day One... not so bad
I'm back to work! Not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing, but I'm here. I'll admit I've been dreading it, but to be honest its like I never left. I've missed the office dynamic and all the conversations that go on around here. These guys crack me up. But I'm definitely missing my baby. I miss Eli too, but I know that he is having more fun at daycare than with me. I don't have that with Nathan. So I just think about him and hope that he is ok. I can already tell you that being away from them is doing wonders my sanity. Is it bad that I already know that? Ever since I figured out that I don't NEED to work anymore, I've been dreading it. Now that I'm here... its definitely for the best. I enjoy my job. I always have. Now maybe I can look at it as something that I 'get' to do instead of something I 'have' to do.
The pumping sucks (pardon the pun)... whoever invented breast pumps was probably laughing his head off at what a cruel joke it was. I HATE PUMPING! But at the same time, I feel like its an important thing that I'm doing for my baby - so I do it. I only get 1/2 of what he needs, but at least its something. I don't mind that he gets formula and am thrilled that he'll eat both. Unfortunately, I know that the pumping won't last nearly as long as it did with Eli. My goal is to pump until he is 6 months old. I made it to 9 months with Eli. who knows. Take it one day at a time. And one day... check. I survived.
The pumping sucks (pardon the pun)... whoever invented breast pumps was probably laughing his head off at what a cruel joke it was. I HATE PUMPING! But at the same time, I feel like its an important thing that I'm doing for my baby - so I do it. I only get 1/2 of what he needs, but at least its something. I don't mind that he gets formula and am thrilled that he'll eat both. Unfortunately, I know that the pumping won't last nearly as long as it did with Eli. My goal is to pump until he is 6 months old. I made it to 9 months with Eli. who knows. Take it one day at a time. And one day... check. I survived.
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